once again i have reached one of those epic cross roads in life, a new chapter if you will. I have come to recoginize, and I guess I have known this all along, that these cross roads are not few and far between. What may be few and far between are the different sections that come along with the book that is your life. such as going to college is a different section and each year is a new chapter.

I'm moving out of my apartmet this weekend. It was a really hard decision. You may recall that i was wanting to move out at the beginning of this school year. I couldn't stand the guys with whom I was living with, but now that we are getting along, it was a difficult decision to move, but then again, it was a difficult decision to resign my lease, so looking back on it now, moving probably is the best thing.

I'm moving in with a friend of mine, my neighbor actually, and I am a little nervous about it, but not too much. His parents are buying a house up here and we're going to share it. The rent will be much cheaper and we will have quite a bit of extra space. It was built in 1930, so needless to say, it has quite a bit of character. The whole neighborhood does actually if you know what I mean.

I had to cancel my lease on saturday and I was very distraught over what to do, but I went ahead and canceled it. I couldn't help but think how much I didn't enjoy living here last year, but Sunday I was still really distraught over my decision. Church was great though, at the college service we had a guest speaker, his name is Henry Clay, who had been a missionary in Argentina for like 15 years. He was awesome. His lesson was on unbelief and how to overcome it. It reminded me to believe in God no matter what. He taught out of the book of Numbers chapters 13-14 when moses was leading the Israelites through the desert and Moses sent 12 men ahead to check out the promised land. The land flowing with "milk and honey", sounds sticky doesn't it? haha

I left church after the college service because I needed to come home and work on some LSAT stuff for my LSAT class that I have every sunday. As I was driving down Kingston pike, which is more or less the main road in Knoxville, I passed the Unitarian church. This part of Kingston Pike which is closest to campus has something like 15 churches on it, ranging from Baptist to Scientology, more or less something for everyone. Well there were like 20 police cars and 2 fire trucks and an ambulance pulling up as i drove by, I knew something bad had to have happened. Later that day i found out that a man not affiliated with the church just walked in and opened fire. It's horrible. I didn't know what the Unitarians believed, so i looked it up, but regardless of whether or not I agree with their beliefs, this is a senseless tragedy.

I'm having trouble lately getting myself to do my homework. I'm ready for summer school to be over. I think moving into a new place is going to do me well, it'll be a much needed change, I just hope that it does not mess me up grade wise for getting my school work done. I really do not have a problem at all staying at the library all night doing my work. I actually prefer that way. I have less distractions and I know that I am there for a purpose.

Well, I think I will get off here and do some work. Hope everyone had a great day.

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i have a midterm tomorrow and a paper due friday. so i've been at the library alot lately cause i like studying there.

i was pretty tired tonight for somereason. it could of been mental. sometimes i think i talk myself into believing that i'm tired. but i had just come from bible study and where we had pigged out on donuts. anyways.

i walked into the starbucks to get a regular coffee. i usually dont like starbucks, but i do applaud them for figuring out a way to charge twice as much for coffee than other people do, and still people flock to them. but it's in the library and it was open so i went there.

anyways.

there were two asian people in front of me. a guy and a girl that were college age. they bought their drinks and then they guy asked the lady working the cash register if they could trade the quarters that he had for the state quarters that starbucks had. he explained that they were from china and wanted to get the quarters that represent each state to take back with them. and i thought it was so cool that the guy and girl working at starbucks went through alot of trouble to find all the state quarters that they had. it just made me feel good about America. how they were willing to take up time and effort to do this. something so simple, like a normal quarter to us, means alot to someone else.

you at the top of the page there is the "next blog" tab. well i was clicking that one day and i came across a blog of a family that has a son, xander, so i believe has downe syndrome. the most recent story had a picture of thier son who is probably onlye 3 or 4 years old sitting in a special stroller. they explained that their insurance would not pay for a new special stroller for their son, which was quite expensive, but someone else who had been reading their blog that they did not know other than through internet sent them the special stroller that they needed because their son had grown out of it. the only thing the couple asked for in return for the stroller was that when xander could no longer use it, that they passed it on to someone else in need of it.

that was really touching as well. you hear of stories like this quite often, but i find it unique and exciting each time.

well i need to keep studying third world countries for my midterm tomorrow. i really enjoy my major, but it does not have much use outside the realm of academia. but i really hope to go to law school, so that will be useful. i want to do pro-bono stuff. pro-bono lawyers do work for those that can not afford a lawyer. this is a requirement to do during law school, so that is what i am most excited about doing during law school.

ok, gotta go now.

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i'm sorry for that last one guys, i was in a bad mood that day. i was really stressed.

but i feel better about things right now. i need to remember that i like to work under pressure, and that God has everything under control. i still have alot of work to do, but i can get quite a bit done this weekend.

so we went to see the Batman movie last night... it was amazing. by far the best movie i've seen in a while. i wish i hadn't eaten all that popcorn and coke during the movie, but it was tasty.

i'm watching the tour de france right now and some guy just crashed and broke his bike in half. ridiculous. i hope he is ok.

alot of my friends that are not in summer school are saying things like, "i wish i was back in school" and i'm like, "i wish i wasnt in school right now." but i think if i was not in summer school i would be saying the same thing they are. i just hope the couple of weeks i have off will let me cool down so i dont get burned out this next semester. i think it'll be alright though. i'm not really worried.

i hate when i wanna get work done. i'm motivated to do it. but i cant seem to make myself do it. i just wish i could figure out how to harness my motivation and turn it into action. any suggestions?

i guess i dont have much to say right now. i need to get going. i might post later.

hope everyone has a good day

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man guys, well, really girls cause i dont think any guys read this. haha. but if there was a time i needed prayer, it's right now. i just have so much stuff to do, and not alot of time to do it. but i guess, when i think about it, i do have alot of time to get it all done. i'm headed to the library here soon to work a little.

i guess i'm just stressing about nothing essentially.

But then again i want to do well in my classes. as well as making others happy, but i need to look out for myslef right, so that means i have to cancel my plans for this weekend, which will make some other people unhappy, but it's not really that big of a deal. it's just a camping trip. oh well. but thats adding to the stress too.

anyways.

did you see the cover of the new yorker today. its all over the news. it made me laugh. haha.

oh ya, to add to the problem of all this homework, i have to find a place to live in two weeks. i may have to live on my own, but that sucks cause i dont want to do that. it's not my favorite thing to do. oh

i'm just being negative today. i'm sorry.

i need to head to the library.

all this will work out in the end. it'll just be better when i get it behind me. or some of it done with.

hope everyone had a good day.

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i'm sorry i didnt post sooner. i found out my LSAT score last thursday. so a week ago today. i was not supposed to get it until monday, but alas they surprised me, and it was not what i was hoping for, so... i wasn't to thrilled to talk about it with people. hence the lateness of this post. but hey, the lightbulb wasnt invented in a day, neither was the telephone. you have to keep trying. so i'm going to take an LSAT Kaplan course and study hard and hopefully make a much better score.

you gotta keep your head up and remember that things will work out in the end. hardwork pays off in the end.

i was thinking today during my poli sci class that just started this week. it's everyday, which isn't bad, but it's right in the middle of the day, so... it's kinda at an awkward time for me. anyways. i'm really glad i picked the major i did, even though it doesn't have much use outside the realm of academia. but i'm concentrating in Public Administration, which has some use if i get my masters in it.

the class is a comparitive nations course and we're focusing on developing countries. so we were talking about industrialization and the things that go along with it, such as education and the things you learn at school other than the ABC's and what not. such as sharing and interacting with people that are different than you. so my teacher says:

"Ya, sharing is a good thing to learn, but some people would say it is bad, i mean, commies (communist) share."

i thought it was funny today.

it rained today. we needed it pretty badly.

i was supposed to do a triathalon this weekend, but i'm not going to. i really wanted to. and to be honest, i'm kinda sad that i'm not doing it. it was an olympic trials triathalon, the last one before the olympic selection. and not that i had ANY chance of doing well, i wanted to do it. but i know that i'm not in good enough shape to do well at all. or to feel comfortable doing it at all. and the way my classes fall for the rest of the summer and the LSAT class schedule is, i probably will not be able to do any more triathalons for a while.

i was talking to my brother today on the way to class, he called to tell me that he and my sister-and-law are going to come visit me this weekend. but i told him that i want him and my other brother to do a triathalon with me next year. so that gives both of them a year to get into shape. my oldest brother, not the one that called me, really needs to excercise. it's important for your health. so i figured that if i could go ahead and get one of them talked into it, it would be easier to talk the other into it. so i think it'll be awesome. kind of a bonding experience.

but excercising is only half of it. i was reading in a magazine today about hearth health, and that just because your fit and work out does not mean that you are immune from heart dissease. eating healthy is a big issue. and i look over this alot. that just cause i live an acitve life style i can eat whatever i want, but i cant, just like i'm not immune to sin.

sometimes i think that i can do whatever i want and it's ok cause God will forgive me, but thats not right. i still need to be on my guard and make sure that i'm living an upright lifestyle you know. it's never ok to smear the line sometimes.

it's black and white, no shades of gray.

i digress.

i have alot of work to do for my classes here in the next like... 3 or 4 weeks. i really need to be working on it. i was planning on going camping next weekend, but unfortunately i might have to break those plans, which would not be cool. but i gotta do what i gotta do.

this too was long, and probably not that interesting. sorry.

hope everyone is doing great.

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(this is long, i'm sorry)

so i havent posted on here in a while and i started to type last night, and i'm just now getting back around to it.

i was sitting around with my roommates late last night and we decided that i'm pretty lazy. lazy as in i dont really do much. they didnt say it, they were just laughing at my revelation of how i dont really do much. last week flew by though, it didn't really seem like i didnt do much. but i didn't have much to show for it. i like to be productive. i enjoy studying and learning new things, it is just getting the motivation to sit down and do it.

here are the big things i did last week. lets see. over the weekend i went to atlanta with the church group. man, that seems forever ago. then i went home for my dads b-day. came back and went to class monday night. worked a couple of times. lets skip to thursday, we, as in ryan and i, rode our bicycles to seveirville. which is outside of gatlinburg. thats about a 60 mile trip... what were we thinking... friday i went golfing with some friends, really fun. then the weekend, didnt do much. went to church sunday morning,(i almost overslept), then went and saw wall-e. thats it. i did some reading for class so that i could do a presentation. but i did that at the last minute.

that was a boring paragraph, but i guess my life is too. the golf game wasn't boring though. i think i'm the next jack nicholas.

but i've decided i've gotta get going again with life. as in studying and excercising. these past couple of weeks i haven't really been living the life of a triathalete, which i enjoy doing. but i went on a very enjoyable run yesterday. i really wanna help my family get in shape. my parents saw me do the triathalon in tullahoma and my dad was like, man, i could do that. so i think i'm going to try and talk my parents into doing a relay team for it next year. maybe get my brothers involved. that would be fun.

anyways.

i decided last week that i'm going to start playing the trombone again. i really miss it. it'll be a while before i get good at it, but i enjoy it. and i also decided that i'm going to read the book Uncle Tom's Cabin. it's an important book in American history. so, i'm going to pick that up this week.

the big news: the LSAT scores come out next week. monday actually. less than 6 days from now. cause they get e-mailed out at 10 A.M. or maybe it was P.M., we'll see. but if ya'll could pray for that.

I just wrote about my quite time this morning, but i dont really know where i was going with that. but i wonder what it takes to have the faith the size of a mustard seed?

so summer has flown by, that means school is about to start up and then we'll graduate sometime soon. life goes by fast, and i like many people, am unsure of what will come, but one this forsure, God isn't unsure, i just wish i had a little bit clearer view of what's to come, i feel like i will come monday at 10.

for the first time in a long time the other day i used a wooden pencil and a pencil sharpener, that took me back a ways.

i'm really random. this is my thought process sometimes.

so i was watching the news the other day, and this girl that plays in the WNBA gets paid 2 million dollars to play on a russian basketball team, and they asked her to play on their olympic team, and she's going to do it. she's from colorado by the way. but she got passed up for the american olympic team. so alot of people are getting upset about her playing on the russian team. i was thinking. and she even said this. she has to make some money somehow. but also, this isnt the cold war error anymore. i'm willing to bet, if she was playing for say sweeden or norway or iceland, or anywhere but a communist country, people wouldn't care so much.

i remember when my aunt and uncle decided to adopt children from russia, my grandmother was freaking out, but she can remember back from when the U.S. was friends with russia to when we went to being sworn enemie up to today, when we're friends again. so some people here russia and they are like "we're going to war", but it's not like that. the olympics are about bringing people together. and hopefully the olympics can play a role in solving the dissputes that we have with china and other countries. and someone made a comment on the news the other day that i should of thought of, but i didnt. we're too economically tied with china to boycott the olympics. it would be a devastating blow to our economy and foreign relations for us to cause a fuss. remember, economic trade between countries leads to peaceful relations.

anyways. this is way too long. i'm going to work on some homework. we have a project in our summer class that is worth 50% of our grade. and then we only have 2 or three other grades. that presentation was one of them. but she told us last night that she forgot to give us our midterm. she forgot.... haha. so i think we're just going to have the final. a take home final. but she said since it's take home, she expects "excellence". you should of seen the expression on her face when she said that. it gave me chills. haha.

have a good day! it's beautiful outside.

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